Thinking out loud... and seeking HIM

Why is it people say you seek God at the hardest points in your life? What about those of us who already know him?  If the hardest obstacles in life make you who you are in the end... why do we pray to try to prevent it?  Do we search for God thinking it will purely “fix” what needs to be fixed and ultimately change the outcome of a situation... do we pray for self comfort that you did all you could... now it's up to Him? Or do we pray for answers, seeking someone who knows before it happens?? I am passionate for God, but have realized I sometimes tend to go longer than I would like without talking to him. Lately I find myself falling to my knees, or closing my eyes to seek Him and His comfort around me more than I ever have before. I believe in Him with all my heart and soul and know He reminds us every day of His power, mercy and glory. We all have our daily struggles and pains. For me, one huge daily struggle is listening to my precious daughter ask for her “Daddy” every time she gets upset or wants something… hoping he will be there to comfort her (a comfort only a Daddy can fill). For now, Mommy will have to do- and I promise to give EXTRA snuggles while I remind her how much her Daddy loves his precious “Bug”. I could not be more proud of the handsome man I married- And I hope he knows that. I can’t wait to have him home where he is supposed to be- Where he is constantly hugged and kissed by his two favorite girls. I know at a time like this I am seeking him more than I have in the past… But me seeking God isn't in desperation... mine is in clarity and comfort.

Address for Ernest

I have given the address for Ernest to SOMEONE in each of our families, and hope they have passed along the information to anyone who wants it. If not, here is a way to send letters and packages to him.

CPT. Ernest Polk
D CO 1-171
APO ae09378

When filling out the customs form- this is where you put the address... it is kind of tricky.

TO: CPT Ernest Polk

Address: D CO 1-171

Postcode: 09378

City: APO

State/Province: ae

Hope this helps! He still doesnt say much that he needs. But anything is appreciated Im sure!! :)

It's about time!!!

First of all, I am so sorry it has taken so long to update this blog! There are so many nights I sit down, intending to write... and then get side tracked, Ernest called, Avery wakes up, or I fall asleep- so there goes that idea! I promise to try harder to keep this up to date. I had no idea we actually had readers... but aparently we do!

So, my handsome hero is doing an amazing job! He is busy, busy... and pretty much surviving on naps- but he is doing his best, which we all know is more than you could get from so many other people. That is one of the many things I love so much about him. He is so commited to his family, the military, and everything he loves. He gives his all... and does an amazing job.

Avery and I are holding down the fort... and I have to say we are doing a great job, I think. So many days I think "how in the world am I getting all this done"... and then realize - yeah, you're getting it done! way to go!! Ernest would be proud! :) With as much as I miss him- time is going by pretty quickly. Between Avery, issues with the dogs, and taking some time to myself to go to the gym to help release stress, the days seem to come and go. When I say issues with the dogs... I mean ISSUES WITH THE DOGS!! several weeks ago, Cleo decided to dig through the trash can and find the left over rotisserie chicken we had for dinner. She ate it all. Bones included! So when I cam downstairs, saw the trash can knocked over... and the chicken MISSING, I proceeded to search the house for the left over chicken bones. NOTHING WAS EVER FOUND. And where might they have been?? HER STOMACH!!! So after researching online (which any of you who know me... I do that more than I should) and everyone said "oh yeah, she'll be fine..." and "she will die!!" Needless to say, she started throwing up bones the following day, and had diarrhea. A VERY high vet bill later- she had to have surgery to get the bones in her stomach and intestines removed!! They were cutting her insides to pieces, and blocking her intestines. NOT FUN!!! She is 100% better now.

I am hoping to not take so long to post an update in the future! I know this is just NOT ACCEPTABLE :) But I promise I am staying so busy!! Thanks again for all the love and support!!!